I don't know what this is about my accidentally deleting histories of stuff I care about--bookmarks, music libraries.

(And what does this say about my current unflappable calm, which in itself is out of the ordinary, and my wide-eyed faith that I will prevail in all the restoration efforts.) 

Things on my mind lately:

1. Fixing my stationery stash, primarily the pens.
2. Trying to find classes to learn how to knit.
3. Planning a quick vacation.

It's very much a dry season--or maybe, just busy, and therefore, it feels like it's a run-down kind of time. There are things to work on, both in real life and outside of it, a sort of husbandry involved in the cultivation of a life and the moments to catch. 

I crave, very much, something to read. I feel too dumbed down lately. 

I have too many thoughts (and hormones) for my own good, sometimes. I'm highly excitable when all I want to do is pin down an idea I've been chasing and get it on paper. Things.

I went down a YouTube rabbit hole (and many of these really did keep me up at night).

James Corden's Carpool Karaoke

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Jimmy Fallon's Wheel of Musical Impressions

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Graham Norton

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(And these are both from Jimmy Fallon, but really it was more about the guests in these ones.)

( Second-hand embarrassment and a raise the roof )

I've just been looking out for a way to break out of these bad vibes and hot mess and cesspool of things-going-wrong, but I don't know how. That bothers me much more than I care to talk about.

Only the loud-crying-out emoji is able to describe me right now: I had accidentally wiped out my entire iTunes library. I still have my iPod, and I really want to restore the library from the iPod--because that's about six years' worth of obsessive-compulsive organization of albums and cover art and playlists. 

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